想要的

想要你陪我去看部电影

想要和你喝杯咖啡，聊一整天

想要陪你做些你喜欢的事

想要你陪在我身边

想要见个面，聊下天

想要见你一面

想要打电话给你说几句

想要关心你

想要的，都如此遥不可及……

我神的好喜欢你……

唉……

Ambiguous would have been a better choice.

Don't really feel that you are ready for this relation up until now. You are not into it at all. At least this is how I felt. There's no time between us. We don't understand both enough. Then why get it started? My bad. Should I make an end for this, just like I started? Hmm...

Contradiction

Holy shitting blurred with where should I go and what should I do~ After being released by the stupid feeling's pressure, now I'm so damn stressed with my future. Am I going to continue my studies in school for UEC and STPM so that I could save money with the scholarship in the future? Or should I leave my school for HELP's so that I am finally freed from Malay and Chinese and all those stupid science subject?

What a failure~~

Lol, failure ain't that disappointing as I thought it was. Maybe I'd already had the answer? Anyways, gave my last shot and I've given it all up. I GIVE UP =D No more trying this kinda things in the future. (sob sob sob T^T )

short thoughts.

Feel exhausted, is it time to make it a past tense? What I've done made no sense to you? Or did i just made a stupid hypothesis? Time to give my last shot. If this fail, I will have nothing left but my mindless, soulless body. Maybe I was meant to be a puppet without strings? Hope what I think it is ain't what it is.

Argh!!!

Its a month since the first day of school!! It's so exhausting, tiring and all those tiring words u can imagine! Kinda wish I didn't choose for lower 6 or promising my mom to be her kindergarten teacher.. But still, promises are promises, can't give up in the middle of everything. Gotta stand still and face all that's coming with my back straight! Grrr! Really lazy to blog ler.... = =

Like what Michelle said, I look more like someone just came out from the jungles more than a student right now. Don't have the time to update myself. What the Fuck with this busy busy life!!! Hope it ends soon....

Act 4 Take 2301

Hunger is conquering me!!! I am all alone in the mid night!! I need FOOD!! It's so so so frustrating when you are hungry! So I decide to make a post of it!

Hungry, means you have an empty stomach, maybe ate a few hours or a few days ago ( that's starving = =) but all the proteins, triglycerol are all hydrolysed and the energy produced by burning this substances are used up in cellular activities! Sorry for the nonsense in Marsish, I mean all the food you ate are digested and used up all the energy you have. Firstly, you will find your saliva's stimulated in a vast amount, trying to overflow your mouth. Next, it OVERFLOWS!!! Then, your stomach is gonna make a weird sound that sounds like "gugu gugu gugu", prepare yourself a pair of earplug to cover your ears cause your stomach is gonna scream!!!! Later on, you will find yourself unable to move because your energy were used up!!

This is how scary being hungry is! So be careful not to let your stomach empty!!

Being full is also a Rock'n'Roll Style~ YEAH~~~~~~

And now, my saliva's overflowing, my stomach's screaming, immobilized ... So... Anyone wanna accompany me before your stomach starts screaming too?

HunTinG

2345

想念也是一种幸福……

Was kinda upset with my mother... =( She praised my artwork ( My youngest brother Hang Xu's sketch =D It was a masterpiece! For her...) , but this morning, before I pass up my form for the SUEC, she said "NOOOOOOO" This is a fucking bullshit that annoyed me the whole day!!!

Hope I could somehow

A."encourage"

B."hypnotize"

C.“persuade"

D. "convince"

her to let me take that art~

Act 3 Take 1901

What The Fuck???!!!!!

I FAILED !!!!
























































Okey la, its my fault not studying it... = =

Anyways, I am really really tired with all the changes happening these days. First of all, RM 60 gone for a set of useless junk novels. ( I admit I will still buy them if I am given the chance to choose once more =P ) Then, I am now a TEACHER for my mom's kindergarten, teaching a bunch of chatter box with unlimited energy. Next, I am trying to take art in SUEC. Maybe will be more tired with those art homework, especially when I was told to help someone with her job. ( of course, its SL) 6 papers of some artistic masterpiece to complete in a week. Meanwhile, STPM ain't an easy job like I think it would be. Its not about how hard it is, its about how much time it takes! Going out of my classroom every now and then, and next, WahLah~ A bunch of BM or English homework waiting for me on my desk when everyone has completed it during the period!!!!

Still, no regrets and no turn back.
Just like when you are excreting shit into the toilet bowl, you can't stop and turn back, do you? If you really can, gratz, you will be the next "Malaysia got talent" champion, whenever this competition's coming to our country.

Act 2 Take 1601

Taking my Undang test tomorrow.. Quite nervous and excited ler~ Really need this P license for unknown reasons. Hope I can get it in March! =]

Anyways, today's the school opening ceremony, yet, another lame day. Not really any nice activities, just some speech from the head-master and the chairman of the board. Heard that the chairman from the board was one of our school's student a long long time ago~~ He's 80+ this year, wonder how'd he look like when he was one of us.

Episode 18 Act 1 Take 0103

Why start blogging again you may ask?

Because I am so so so pissed off!!
Why and when did my brother started blogging?
I can't lose him!!!

Many things changed since I'd last took a look on myself.

Only then I found out I changed a lot, a lot emotional than I was.
So, I decided to ride on the wind of change.

I'm gonna be naive like I was.
Gonna be happy and think no more about those that haunt me.

Well, life's tiring studying pre-U in CHKL.

Two different style of studies, two different schedule to follow, two different teachers for Bio Chem Physics and Math, two different classes and two different me. =]

Really kinda envy those who left CHKL after SPM.
At least they don't need take Mr. Khan's torturing English which sounds like, " This wan... You... Cross-out... This word... And ... Replace it... With ... This word...." =______= I was like "What the *censored* is he talking??" when I first hear his keep-pausing-English, and he was the head of the English Department!!!

CHKL ran outa money to hire good teachers?? ( I mean, at least no more keep-pausing-English??)
Anyways, I thanked God my pre-U English (MUET) teacher wasn't as bullshit as Mr.Khan. =]